HELLO EVERYONE :- ).. SO THIS IS MY FIRST TIME EVER BLOGGING.. I KNOW ITS KIND OF WEIRD BEING THAT I ALWAYS HAVE SOMETHING IMMENSE TO SAY BUT EHHH NEVER FELT THE NEED IT DO IT UNTIL NOW!!
WELL I DON'T WANT TO BORE YOU WITH MY INTRODUCTION IM GOING TO GET RIGHT TO THE TITLE..
AFTER WATCHING TYRA TODAY.. EPISODE "GAY GUYS WHO WANT TO BE STRAIGHT".. I THOUGHT AM I A GAY GIRL WHO WANTS TO BE STRAIGHT?!?.. I MEAN FOR ALL OF MY LIFE I HAVE BEEN ATTRACTED TO GIRLS.. NOT ALL SO DON'T GET YOUR HOPES UP LADIES.. GROWING UP AS A LITTLE GIRL I WAS BASICALLY A TOM BOY..
WHEN I WAS REALLY YOUNG.. AN AGE I WILL NOT DISCLOSE BECAUSE OF NON BELIEVERS I BEGAN TALKING TO GIRLS.. NOW!.. BEING THAT "ALL WOMEN ARE STRAIGHT AND ONLY EXPERIMENT".. ME SAYING THAT IM GAY IS BESIDE THE POINT TO MEN.. BECAUSE “OF COURSE GAY GIRLS DON'T EXIST”.. I MEAN I CAN UNDERSTAND BEING THAT SOME GIRLS SAY THEIR GAY ONE YEAR AND THE NEXT THEIR WEARING CLOTHES LIKE GUYS.. WHICH I THINK IS DUMB AS HELL.. ITS NOT COMFY SO CUT THAT EXCUSE PLEASE.. THANK YOU.. BUT IM NOT HERE WILLING TO GIVE GUYS WHAT THEY WANT AT THE MOMENT CAUSE UNLESS IM DESPERATE AT THE TIME ITS NOT WHAT I WANT EITHER.. PLUS I DON’T VALUE PEOPLE I TALK TO THAT I HAVE KNOWN FOR A COUPLE OF MONTHS J..
SOOO BACK TO ME BEING A “GAY GIRL WANTING TO BE STRAIGHT”.. FIRST BF WAS IN HS.. THATS WHEN MY ATTRACTION TO GUYS BEGAN.. I HAVE BEEN LIVING MY LIFE ON THE DOWN LOW..LIKE SOME MEN.. FOR MOST OF MY MIDDLE SCHOOL AND HIGH SCHOOL YEARS.. SO WHEN I FINALLY CAME TO COLLEGE AND WOULDN'T GIVE GUYS THE TIME OF DAY.. LEADING THEM ON THEN ULTIMATELY CRUSHING THEIR HOPES I FINALLY HAD TO LET THE ACTUAL ME SHOW..
IT STARTED OFF AS "JENNIFER IS A LESBIAN".. BUT I WOULDN'T CALL MYSELF A LESBIAN BECAUSE I HAVE AN ATTRACTION TO GUYS.. I MEAN IF THE PEOPLE AT HOWARD WANT TO REGARD TO ME A LESBIAN THEN THATS GREAT.. CAUSE I WONT GIVE THE GUYS WHAT THEY CRAVE.. WHICH typically LEAD THEM TO SAYING ATROCIOUS STUFF ABOUT ME BECAUSE THEY ARE PRESUMED TO BE "THAT NIGGA"..
BEING THAT MY PATHETIC EX GIRLWHORE CAME OUT TO MY FAMILY ABOUT ME BEING GAY THIS IS WHEN THE CHAOS BEGAN.. BEING GAY IS NOT A CHOICE FOR PEOPLE WHO IN FACT ARE GAY.. THOSE GOING THROUGH A PHASE USUALLY LIKE F*CKING THE SAME SEX AND THATS IT!..
RAISED IN SUCH A RELIGIOUS FAMILY BEING GAY OF COURSE IS A SIN.. IM APPARENTLY GOING TO HELL REGARDLESS IF IM A GOOD INDIVIDUAL OR NOT.. AND I HAVE TO CHANGE MY LIFESTYLE OR I WILL FOVEVER LIVE IN DISTRESS.. SO THIS IS WHEN THE "GAY GIRL WHO WANTS TO BE STRAIGHT" THING COMES IN.. BUT THE REAL QUESTION IS DO I ACTUALLY WANT TO BE STRAIGHT OR DO I FEEL BEING STRAIGHT WILL END ALL THE MADNESS THAT I AM FACED WITH DAILY?..
I DONT WANT TO BE STRAIGHT I JUST WANT TO BE MYSELF.. IF I START TALKING TO GUYS IT DOESN'T MEAN IM NOT LONGER ATTRACTED TO WOMAN.. IT JUST MEANS I FOUND A GUY THAT IS WORTH MY TIME.. NOW BEING IN THE GAY WORLD DOESN'T MEAN IM PROMISCUOUS.. I KNOW A LOT OF GAY PEOPLE..SOME THAT I WAS WITH..WHO PUT THEIR SELF OUT THERE WANTING TO EFF EVERYTHING THAT WALKS.. IM A VERY HEALTH CONSCIOUS PERSON.. AND AIDS..HERPES..OR ANYTHING THAT I CAN CATCH IS NOT ON MY TO DO LIST.. ALSO I WANT TO HAVE KIDS IN THE FUTURE AND I DON'T SEE ARTIFICIAL INSEMINATION BEING THE WAY.. SO STAY TUNED FOR MORE ON THE J~MEISTER LOL
WELL I DON'T WANT TO BORE YOU WITH MY INTRODUCTION IM GOING TO GET RIGHT TO THE TITLE..
AFTER WATCHING TYRA TODAY.. EPISODE "GAY GUYS WHO WANT TO BE STRAIGHT".. I THOUGHT AM I A GAY GIRL WHO WANTS TO BE STRAIGHT?!?.. I MEAN FOR ALL OF MY LIFE I HAVE BEEN ATTRACTED TO GIRLS.. NOT ALL SO DON'T GET YOUR HOPES UP LADIES.. GROWING UP AS A LITTLE GIRL I WAS BASICALLY A TOM BOY..
WHEN I WAS REALLY YOUNG.. AN AGE I WILL NOT DISCLOSE BECAUSE OF NON BELIEVERS I BEGAN TALKING TO GIRLS.. NOW!.. BEING THAT "ALL WOMEN ARE STRAIGHT AND ONLY EXPERIMENT".. ME SAYING THAT IM GAY IS BESIDE THE POINT TO MEN.. BECAUSE “OF COURSE GAY GIRLS DON'T EXIST”.. I MEAN I CAN UNDERSTAND BEING THAT SOME GIRLS SAY THEIR GAY ONE YEAR AND THE NEXT THEIR WEARING CLOTHES LIKE GUYS.. WHICH I THINK IS DUMB AS HELL.. ITS NOT COMFY SO CUT THAT EXCUSE PLEASE.. THANK YOU.. BUT IM NOT HERE WILLING TO GIVE GUYS WHAT THEY WANT AT THE MOMENT CAUSE UNLESS IM DESPERATE AT THE TIME ITS NOT WHAT I WANT EITHER.. PLUS I DON’T VALUE PEOPLE I TALK TO THAT I HAVE KNOWN FOR A COUPLE OF MONTHS J..
SOOO BACK TO ME BEING A “GAY GIRL WANTING TO BE STRAIGHT”.. FIRST BF WAS IN HS.. THATS WHEN MY ATTRACTION TO GUYS BEGAN.. I HAVE BEEN LIVING MY LIFE ON THE DOWN LOW..LIKE SOME MEN.. FOR MOST OF MY MIDDLE SCHOOL AND HIGH SCHOOL YEARS.. SO WHEN I FINALLY CAME TO COLLEGE AND WOULDN'T GIVE GUYS THE TIME OF DAY.. LEADING THEM ON THEN ULTIMATELY CRUSHING THEIR HOPES I FINALLY HAD TO LET THE ACTUAL ME SHOW..
IT STARTED OFF AS "JENNIFER IS A LESBIAN".. BUT I WOULDN'T CALL MYSELF A LESBIAN BECAUSE I HAVE AN ATTRACTION TO GUYS.. I MEAN IF THE PEOPLE AT HOWARD WANT TO REGARD TO ME A LESBIAN THEN THATS GREAT.. CAUSE I WONT GIVE THE GUYS WHAT THEY CRAVE.. WHICH typically LEAD THEM TO SAYING ATROCIOUS STUFF ABOUT ME BECAUSE THEY ARE PRESUMED TO BE "THAT NIGGA"..
BEING THAT MY PATHETIC EX GIRLWHORE CAME OUT TO MY FAMILY ABOUT ME BEING GAY THIS IS WHEN THE CHAOS BEGAN.. BEING GAY IS NOT A CHOICE FOR PEOPLE WHO IN FACT ARE GAY.. THOSE GOING THROUGH A PHASE USUALLY LIKE F*CKING THE SAME SEX AND THATS IT!..
RAISED IN SUCH A RELIGIOUS FAMILY BEING GAY OF COURSE IS A SIN.. IM APPARENTLY GOING TO HELL REGARDLESS IF IM A GOOD INDIVIDUAL OR NOT.. AND I HAVE TO CHANGE MY LIFESTYLE OR I WILL FOVEVER LIVE IN DISTRESS.. SO THIS IS WHEN THE "GAY GIRL WHO WANTS TO BE STRAIGHT" THING COMES IN.. BUT THE REAL QUESTION IS DO I ACTUALLY WANT TO BE STRAIGHT OR DO I FEEL BEING STRAIGHT WILL END ALL THE MADNESS THAT I AM FACED WITH DAILY?..
I DONT WANT TO BE STRAIGHT I JUST WANT TO BE MYSELF.. IF I START TALKING TO GUYS IT DOESN'T MEAN IM NOT LONGER ATTRACTED TO WOMAN.. IT JUST MEANS I FOUND A GUY THAT IS WORTH MY TIME.. NOW BEING IN THE GAY WORLD DOESN'T MEAN IM PROMISCUOUS.. I KNOW A LOT OF GAY PEOPLE..SOME THAT I WAS WITH..WHO PUT THEIR SELF OUT THERE WANTING TO EFF EVERYTHING THAT WALKS.. IM A VERY HEALTH CONSCIOUS PERSON.. AND AIDS..HERPES..OR ANYTHING THAT I CAN CATCH IS NOT ON MY TO DO LIST.. ALSO I WANT TO HAVE KIDS IN THE FUTURE AND I DON'T SEE ARTIFICIAL INSEMINATION BEING THE WAY.. SO STAY TUNED FOR MORE ON THE J~MEISTER LOL
your title should be : "Straight girl who wants to be gay"
ReplyDeleteI've had a similar experience with my family. The Cussin, the threats, but I didn't let it get to me. It was good though, I mean I know now who really cares cause nobody is talking to me except my cousin. Anyway, that's not the point I wanted to say it's the opposite way around if you ask me. I'm a Straight Girl who wants to be Gay"
Homosexuality is an act. And since it requires action to be homosexual, it is indeed a choice. You can either choose to engage in sexual activity or not. Its completely up to you.
But for me it was different, I definetly remember liking boyz. I used to like all those usher guys, and genuwine. But I figured out when I stopped it was when my parents got divorced, all of a sudden I started seeing guys as assholes, and the ladies started to look better. I told my father that maybe if he never left, I would still be straight.
But, sorry you are wrong, gay girls definetly exist, because I am one of them. If You don't think your gay, then maybe you have some denial issues. But again, its your choice. I made my choice, cost my my family, friends, and I pray to god sometimes I wasn't gay, cause its hard when your own brothers won't talk to you anymore but I am, and I'm cool with it. It sounds like your confused...I dont know, but stay strong eventually you will figure it out. I know alot of people that said they were gay and then they wern't and vice versa.