RIGHT NOW IM SAD :- (

WELL THOSE OF YOU WHO KNOW ME KNOW THAT RECENTLY I HAVE LOST TWO VERY EXTRAORDINARY FAMILY MEMBERS IN MY LIFE TO CANCER.. MY DAD AND MY STEP MOTHER.. AND AS I SIT HERE REMINISCING ABOUT ALL THE VIDS THAT I HAVE MADE I RAN ACROSS THIS ONE...

THIS VIDEO WAS MADE FOLLOWING MY DAD PASSING AWAY.. HE WAS A VERY STRONG COMPASSIONATE MALE WHO TOOK CARE OF HIS RESPONSIBILITIES, HIS FRIENDS AND FAMILY.. I LOVE HIM AND I MISS HIM.. I NEARLY CRIED WATCHING THIS VIDEO BUT I REMEMBERED I SHOULDNT BE CRYING..THAT IS NOT WHAT HE WOULD WANT ME TO DO.. I SHOULD BE CELEBERATING HIS LIFE.. HE DID ALL IN LIFE THAT HE WANTED TO DO AND ACCOMPLISHED EVERY GOAL THAT HE HAD SET FORWARD..

MY STEP MOTHER WAS ALSO A GREAT PERSON..USUALLY YOUNG WOMAN HAVE TRIBULATIONS WITH THEIR STEP MOTHER BUT I COULDNT HAVE ASKED FOR ANYONE ELSE.. SHE WAS ALWAYS SUPPORTIVE AND SHE SHOWED US HOW MUCH SHE CARED THROUGH HER ACTIONS..

LEAVING TWO AMAZING CHILDREN BEHIND BUT WELL TAKEN CARE OF WE HAVE DEDICATED OUR LIVES TO MAKING SURE THAT THEY WILL ALWAYS BE HAPPY.. THEY ARE BLESSED TO HAVE FAMIY MEMBERS THAT CARE..DONT FEEL SORRY OR HAVE PITY ON OUR FAMILY.. WE ARE DOING GOOD.. WE TAKE THE GOOD WITH THE BAD AND SMILE WHEN WERE SAD

I CAN MAKE YOUR BED ROCK

EVERY BREAK IM INFAMOUS FOR MAKING VIDEOS.. WHILE I HAVE TONS OF FUN RECORDING THEM.. I HAVE EVEN MORE FUN PUTTING THEM TOGETHER.. TAKES A LOT OF TIME AND THOUGHT SO I HOPE YOU ENJOY :- )

"GAY GIRL WHO WANTS TO BE STRAIGHT"

HELLO EVERYONE :- ).. SO THIS IS MY FIRST TIME EVER BLOGGING.. I KNOW ITS KIND OF WEIRD BEING THAT I ALWAYS HAVE SOMETHING IMMENSE TO SAY BUT EHHH NEVER FELT THE NEED IT DO IT UNTIL NOW!!

WELL I DON'T WANT TO BORE YOU WITH MY INTRODUCTION IM GOING TO GET RIGHT TO THE TITLE..

AFTER WATCHING TYRA TODAY.. EPISODE "GAY GUYS WHO WANT TO BE STRAIGHT".. I THOUGHT AM I A GAY GIRL WHO WANTS TO BE STRAIGHT?!?.. I MEAN FOR ALL OF MY LIFE I HAVE BEEN ATTRACTED TO GIRLS.. NOT ALL SO DON'T GET YOUR HOPES UP LADIES.. GROWING UP AS A LITTLE GIRL I WAS BASICALLY A TOM BOY..

WHEN I WAS REALLY YOUNG.. AN AGE I WILL NOT DISCLOSE BECAUSE OF NON BELIEVERS I BEGAN TALKING TO GIRLS.. NOW!.. BEING THAT "ALL WOMEN ARE STRAIGHT AND ONLY EXPERIMENT".. ME SAYING THAT IM GAY IS BESIDE THE POINT TO MEN.. BECAUSE “OF COURSE GAY GIRLS DON'T EXIST”.. I MEAN I CAN UNDERSTAND BEING THAT SOME GIRLS SAY THEIR GAY ONE YEAR AND THE NEXT THEIR WEARING CLOTHES LIKE GUYS.. WHICH I THINK IS DUMB AS HELL.. ITS NOT COMFY SO CUT THAT EXCUSE PLEASE.. THANK YOU.. BUT IM NOT HERE WILLING TO GIVE GUYS WHAT THEY WANT AT THE MOMENT CAUSE UNLESS IM DESPERATE AT THE TIME ITS NOT WHAT I WANT EITHER.. PLUS I DON’T VALUE PEOPLE I TALK TO THAT I HAVE KNOWN FOR A COUPLE OF MONTHS J..

SOOO BACK TO ME BEING A “GAY GIRL WANTING TO BE STRAIGHT”.. FIRST BF WAS IN HS.. THATS WHEN MY ATTRACTION TO GUYS BEGAN.. I HAVE BEEN LIVING MY LIFE ON THE DOWN LOW..LIKE SOME MEN.. FOR MOST OF MY MIDDLE SCHOOL AND HIGH SCHOOL YEARS.. SO WHEN I FINALLY CAME TO COLLEGE AND WOULDN'T GIVE GUYS THE TIME OF DAY.. LEADING THEM ON THEN ULTIMATELY CRUSHING THEIR HOPES I FINALLY HAD TO LET THE ACTUAL ME SHOW..

IT STARTED OFF AS "JENNIFER IS A LESBIAN".. BUT I WOULDN'T CALL MYSELF A LESBIAN BECAUSE I HAVE AN ATTRACTION TO GUYS.. I MEAN IF THE PEOPLE AT HOWARD WANT TO REGARD TO ME A LESBIAN THEN THATS GREAT.. CAUSE I WONT GIVE THE GUYS WHAT THEY CRAVE.. WHICH typically LEAD THEM TO SAYING ATROCIOUS STUFF ABOUT ME BECAUSE THEY ARE PRESUMED TO BE "THAT NIGGA"..

BEING THAT MY PATHETIC EX GIRLWHORE CAME OUT TO MY FAMILY ABOUT ME BEING GAY THIS IS WHEN THE CHAOS BEGAN.. BEING GAY IS NOT A CHOICE FOR PEOPLE WHO IN FACT ARE GAY.. THOSE GOING THROUGH A PHASE USUALLY LIKE F*CKING THE SAME SEX AND THATS IT!..

RAISED IN SUCH A RELIGIOUS FAMILY BEING GAY OF COURSE IS A SIN.. IM APPARENTLY GOING TO HELL REGARDLESS IF IM A GOOD INDIVIDUAL OR NOT.. AND I HAVE TO CHANGE MY LIFESTYLE OR I WILL FOVEVER LIVE IN DISTRESS.. SO THIS IS WHEN THE "GAY GIRL WHO WANTS TO BE STRAIGHT" THING COMES IN.. BUT THE REAL QUESTION IS DO I ACTUALLY WANT TO BE STRAIGHT OR DO I FEEL BEING STRAIGHT WILL END ALL THE MADNESS THAT I AM FACED WITH DAILY?..

I DONT WANT TO BE STRAIGHT I JUST WANT TO BE MYSELF.. IF I START TALKING TO GUYS IT DOESN'T MEAN IM NOT LONGER ATTRACTED TO WOMAN.. IT JUST MEANS I FOUND A GUY THAT IS WORTH MY TIME.. NOW BEING IN THE GAY WORLD DOESN'T MEAN IM PROMISCUOUS.. I KNOW A LOT OF GAY PEOPLE..SOME THAT I WAS WITH..WHO PUT THEIR SELF OUT THERE WANTING TO EFF EVERYTHING THAT WALKS.. IM A VERY HEALTH CONSCIOUS PERSON.. AND AIDS..HERPES..OR ANYTHING THAT I CAN CATCH IS NOT ON MY TO DO LIST.. ALSO I WANT TO HAVE KIDS IN THE FUTURE AND I DON'T SEE ARTIFICIAL INSEMINATION BEING THE WAY.. SO STAY TUNED FOR MORE ON THE J~MEISTER LOL